------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Awake (75:03) James LaBrie - vocals John Petrucci - guitar John Myung - bass Kevin Moore - keys Mike Portnoy - drums ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1) 6:00 (05:31) - Kevin Moore "Six o'clock on a Christmas morning..." [4 times] "And for what?" "Well, isn't it for the honor of God, [Samples from the film "The Dead",] Aunt Kate?" [an adaptation of James Joyce's ] "I know all about the honor of God, [short story from his book ] Mary Jane." ["Dubliners". ] Six o'clock the siren kicks him from a dream Tries to shake it off but it just won't stop Can't find the strength but he's got promises to keep And wood to chop before he sleeps I may never get over but never's better than now I've got bases to cover He's in the parking lot and he's just sitting in his car It's nine o'clock but he can't get out He lights a cigarette and turns the music down but just can't seem to shake that sound Once I thought I'd get over but it's too late for me now I've got bases to cover Melody walks through the door and memory flies out the window and nobody knows what they want 'til they finally let it all go The pain inside coming outside So many ways to drown a man So many ways to drag him down Some are fast and some take years and years Can't hear what he's saying when he's talking in his sleep He finally found the sound but he's in too deep I could never get over Is it too late for me now? Feel like blowing my cover Melody walks through the door and memory flies out the window and nobody knows what they want 'til they finally let it all go But don't cut your losses too soon 'cause you'll only be cutting your throat And answer a call while you still hear at all 'cause nobody will if you won't "Six o'clock on a Christmas morning..." [4 times] "I know all about the honor of God, Mary..." [3 times] "I know all about the honor of God, [Samples from the film "The Dead",] Mary Jane." [an adaptation of James Joyce's ] [short story from his book ] ["Dubliners". ] 2) Caught In A Web (05:28) - James LaBrie and John Petrucci Silence disguised I watch you Show me the hurt that haunts you would you despise the thrill If all you hide were mine? I can't hold on any longer These feelings keep growing stronger Echoes that deafen the mind will bury my voice in their wake Caught in a Web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head I've seen the path the one you take shows the truth for you to make This turn of phrase we might not see is the thirst of desire found so easily Try to push me 'round the world some more And make me live in fear I bare all that I am made of now Attractive I don't care 'Cause even when I danced with life no one was there to share Does this voice the wounds of your soul? Does this voice the wounds of your soul? Caught in a Web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head Tried to live the life you live and saw It doesn't work for me I bare all that I am made of now Attractive, I can't be Inside the Dance of Life is one I'll never hold to me You can't heal the wounds of my soul. You can't heal the wounds of my soul. Caught in a Web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head Caught in a Web Refused by the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning a cage Denied and misread 3) Innocence Faded (05:43) - John Petrucci Animation breathes a cloudless mind Fascination leaves the doubting blind Until the circle breaks and wisdom lies ahead the faithful live Awake the rest remain misled Some will transcend spinning years One as if time disappears Innocence faded the mirror falls behind you Trinity jaded I break down walls to find you Callow and vain fixed like a fossil, shrouding pain Passionless stage Distant like brothers Wearing apathetic displays Sharing flesh like envy in cages Condescending Not intending to end Some will transcend spinning years One as if time disappears Innocence faded the mirror falls behind you Trinity jaded I break down walls to find you Beginnings get complicated the farther we progress Opinions are calculated Immune to openness Beyond the circle's edge We're driven by her blessings Forever hesitating Caught beneath the wheel Innocence faded the mirror falls behind you Cynically jaded The child will crawl to find you. 4) A Mind Beside Itself i. Erotomania (instrumental) (06:45) 5) ii. Voices (09:53) - John Petrucci 'Love, just don't stare' He used to say to me every Sunday morning The spider in the window The angel in the pool The old man takes the poison Now the widow makes the rules 'So speak, I'm right here' She used to say to me not a word, not a word Judas on the ceiling the Devil in my bed I guess Easter's never coming So I'll just wait inside my head Like a scream but sort of silent living off my nightmares Voices repeating me 'Feeling threatened? We reflect your hopes and fears.' Voices discussing me 'Others steal your thoughts they're not confined within your mind.' Thought disorder Dream control Now they read my mind on the radio But where was the Garden of Eden? I feel elated I feel depressed Sex is death, Death is sex Says it right here on my Crucifix Like a scream but sort of silent living off my nightmares Voices protecting me 'Good behavior brings the Savior to his knees.' Voices rejecting me 'Others steal your thoughts they're not confined to your own mind.' "I don't wanna be here, 'cause of my [Dialogue by rap artist Prix-mo ] suffering, 'cause of my illness. [reading from the book "Cultural ] Only love is worth having, only [Revolution". ] love is what matters, loving every people on equal terms. " "You've got to know who you're dealin' with because, like a stranger, a-heh, just might come in through here with a gun... and then, what would you do? (Heh.)" "Everything is immaterial..." "'n' you know that reality is immaterial." "This is not reality..." I'm kneeling on the floor staring at the wall like the spider in the window I wish that I could speak Is there fantasy in refuge? God in politicians? Should I turn on my religion? These demons in my head tell me to I'm lying here in bed Swear my skin is inside out Just another Sunday morning Seen my diary on the newsstand Seems we've lost the truth to quicksand It's a shame no one is praying 'Cause these voices in my head keep saying... 'Love, just don't stare.' 'Reveal the Word when you're supposed to' Withdrawn and introverted Infectiously perverted 'Being laughed at and confused keeps us pleasantly amused enough to stay.' Maybe I'm just Cassandra fleeting Twentieth century Icon bleeding Willing to risk Salvation to escape from isolation I'm witness to redemption heard you speak but never listened Can you rid me of my secrets? Deliver us from Darkness? Voices repeating me 'Feeling threatened? We reflect your hopes and fears.' Voices discussing me Don't expect your own Messiah This neverworld which you desire is only in your mind. 6) iii. The Silent Man (03:48) - John Petrucci A question well served, 'Is silence like a fever?' 'A voice never heard?' 'Or a message with no receiver?' Pray they won't ask Behind the stained glass There's always one more mask Has man been a victim of his woman, of his father? if he elects not to bother, will he suffocate their faith? Desperate to fall Behind the Great Wall That separates us all When there is reason Tonight I'm Awake when there's no answer Arrive the Silent Man If there is balance tonight He's Awake If they have to suffer There lies the Silent Man Sin without deceivers A God with no believers I could sail by on the Winds of Silence And maybe they won't notice But this time I think It'd be better if I swim When there is reason Tonight I'm Awake When there's no answer Arrive the Silent Man If there is balance Tonight he's Awake But if they have to suffer There lies the Silent Man 7) The Mirror (06:45) - Mike Portnoy [Low spoken parts performed by Mike Portnoy] Temptation- Why won't you leave me alone? Lurking Every Corner, everywhere I go Self Control- Don't turn your back on me now When I need you the most Constant pressure tests my will My will or my won't My Self Control escapes from me still... "???" [Sample from ???] Hypocrite- How could you be so cruel and expect my faith in return? Resistance- Is not as hard as it seems When you close the door I spent so long trusting in you I trust you forgot Just when I thought I believed in you... "What're you doing? [Sample is Meryl Streep from the ] What're you doing?" [film "Falling In Love". ] It's time for me to deal Becoming all too real living in fear- Why did you lie and pretend? This has come to an end I'll never trust you again It's time you made your amends Look in the mirror my friend "That I haven't behaved as I should" [Sample is Jeremy Irons from the ] [film "Damage". ] "Everything you need is around you. [Sample is Mary Beth Hurt from the] The only danger is inside you." [film "Light Sleeper". ] "I thought you could control life, [Sample is Jeremy Irons from the ] but it's not like that. There are [film "Damage". ] things you can't control." Let's stare the problem right in the eye It's plagued me from coast to coast Racing the clock to please everyone All but the one who matters the most Reflections of reality are slowly coming into view How in the hell could you possibly forgive me? After all the hell I put you through It's time for me to deal Becoming all too real living in fear- Why'd I betray my friend? Lying until the end Living life so pretend It's time to make my amends I'll never hurt you again 8) Lie (06:34) - Kevin Moore Daybreak at the bottom of lake it's a hundred degrees I can't breathe And I won't get out 'til I figure it out Though I'm weak like I can't believe So you tell me 'trust me' l can trust you Just let me show you But I gotta work it out in a shadow of doubt 'cause I don't know if I know you Doing fine but don't waste my time Tell me what it is you want to say You sin, you win, just let me in - hurry I've been out in the rain all day So you tell me 'trust me' I can trust you as far as I can throw you And I'm trying to get out of a shadow of doubt 'cause I don't know if I know you [Chorus:] Don't tell me you wanted me Don't tell me you thought of me I won't, I swear I won't (Did) I'll try, I swear I'll try (Lie) Mother Mary quite contrary Kiss the boys and make them wary Things are getting just a little bit scary It's a wonder I can still breathe Never been much of a doubting Thomas but nothing breaks like a broken promise You tell me 'bout your two more coming but once is just enough for me [Chorus] I had gotten used to being a soul destroyed She comes in apparently to fill the void All dogs need a leash and at least I'll forget it And she would never hurt me though she's never said it But I'm not gonna ask her today I don't wanna scare her away Your town, I'm all alone and I just can't stare at the phone I wanna talk about lifelong mistakes and you can tell your stepfather I said so [Chorus] 9) Lifting Shadows Off A Dream (06:05) - John Myung He seems alone and silent thoughts remain without an answer Afraid and uninvited he slowly drifts away Moved by desire and fear Breaking delicate wings Lifting shadows off a Dream once broken She can turn a drop of water Into an ocean As the rain is pouring down Tears of sorrow wash his mind Drifting with the current This stream of life flows on He seems alone and silent waiting on his hands and knees The chill of winter's darkness sits quietly Moved by desire and fear he takes a few steps away Lifting shadows off a Dream once broken She can turn a drop of water Into an ocean And she listens openly He pours his soul into the water reflecting the mystery She carries him away and the winds die slowly And she listens openly And she listens openly Lifting shadows off a Dream once broken She can turn a drop of water Into an ocean Lifting Shadows off a Dream Lifting Shadows off a Dream 10) Scarred (11:00) - John Petrucci To Rise, To Fall. To Hurt, To Hate. To Want, To Wait. To Heal, To Save. Can't hear it we fear it awareness won't come near it Distractive Reactive Disguised in spite of time I never bared my emotion My passion always strong I never lost my devotion but somewhere fate went wrong Can't let them rape me again Your venom's not family here won't let them fill me with fatalistic remedies What if the rest of the world was hopelessly blinded by fear? Where would my sanctity live? Suddenly nobody cares. It's never enough You're wasting your time Isn't there something I could say? You don't understand You're closing me out How can we live our lives this way? You tell me I'm wrong I'm risking my life Still, I have nothing in return I show you my hands You don't see the scars Maybe you'll leave me here to burn. What if the rest of the world was hopelessly drowning in vain? Where would our self pity run? Suddenly everyone cares. Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware Give up on misery Turn your back on dissent Leave their distrust behind Wash your hands of regret Do you feel you don't know me anymore? And do you feel I'm afraid of your love? And how come you don't want me asking? And how come my heart's not invited? You say you want everyone happy Well, we're not laughing. And how come you don't understand me? And how come I don't understand you? Thirty years say we're in this together So open your eyes. People in prayer for me everyone there for me Sometimes I feel I should face this alone My soul exposed It calms me to know that I won't Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware Give up on misery Turn your back on dissent Leave their distrust behind Wash your hands of regret Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware Learning from misery Staring back at dissent Leaving distrust behind I'm inspired and content 11) Space-Dye Vest (07:29) - Kevin Moore Falling through pages of Martens on angels Feeling my heart pull west I saw the future dressed as a stranger love in a space-dye vest Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding a pool in the shape of a heart Beauty projection in the reflection Always the worst way to start "But he's the sort who can't know [Sample is Julian Sands from the ] anyone intimately, least of all a [film "A Room With A View". ] woman. He doesn't know what a woman is. He wants you for a possession, something to look at like a painting or an ivory box. Something to own and to display. He doesn't want you to be real, or to think or to live. He doesn't love you, but I love you. I want you to have your own thoughts and ideas and feelings, even when I hold you in my arms. It's our last chance... It's our last chance..." Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it Learning to swallow the rage Found a new girl I think we can make it as long as she stays on the page This is not how I want it to end And I'll never be open again "...I was gonna move out...ummm...get, [Sample from "The Trouble With ] get a job, get my own place, ummm, [Evan", from the Canadian series ] but... I go into the mall where I ["The Fifth Estate". ] want to work and they tell me, I'm, I was too young..." "Some people, gave advice before, [Sample is Jim Hill from a news ] about facing the facts, about [commentary about the OJ Simpson ] facing reality. And this is, this [freeway chase. ] without a doubt, is his biggest challenge ever. He's going to have to face it. You're gonna have to try, he's gonna to have to try and, uh, and, and, and get some help here. I mean no one can say they know how he feels." "That, so they say that, in ya know [Sample from the Conan O'Brien ] like, Houston or something, you'd [show. ] say it's a hundred and eighty degrees, but it's a dry heat. In Houston they say that? Oh, maybe not. I'm all mixed up. Dry until they hit the swimming pool." "...I get up with the sun... Listen. [Sample from "The Trouble With ] You have your own room to sleep in, [Evan", from the Canadian series ] I don't care what you do. I don't ["The Fifth Estate". ] care when. That door gets locked, that door gets locked at night by nine o'clock. If you're not in this house by nine o'clock, then you'd better find some place to sleep. Because you're not going to be a bum in this house. Supper is ready..." There's no one to take my blame if they wanted to There's nothing to keep me sane and it's all the same to you There's nowhere to set my aim so I'm everywhere Never come near me again do you really think I need you I'll never be open again, I could never be open again. I'll never be open again, I could never be open again. And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend And I'll never be open again And I'll have no more dreams to defend And I'll never be open again